Do You have an answer for my questions

It was one of the nicest sms that I have received from her. She wanted me to write a sweet sms! I don’t know what is a sweet sms but I scribbled some lines of a poem for her
Prema re maataal mun
Khojuchhi khojuchhi ethi
Swapnara subarna saapa
Chumaban nadele nahin
Dansanare deba kicchi prema aau paapa

I don’t know why but I always wish to spend time with her, but with the current situation in life and work load, it seems difficult for me but I am trying to do my best to save this relationship for ever. I wished her to attend a workshop so that on the last day of the workshop, I could meet her but now she writes me to know that she is not coming and see is going elsewhere !
I got a mail from Jayati, my friend where she has written about a little sparrow which landed up in her house in one evening deeply bruised and physically hurt. She tried her level best to save the bird but couldn’t. She is carrying a little guilt on this and wrote me about this incident. My reply was stale, I know. There are many things happening this year in life for which I don’t have any answer. Monsoon coming back to life and then life looking romantic is one of the events to which I have no answer. Why this happened after so many years? Why did she came back to my life and then on that eventful afternoon what happened in the hotel room when we opened up our hearts.... there are no explanations. Years of solitude vanished in a moment; years of love and unattended attention evaporated in a moment of joy. She was also part of this madness and then she vanished and now I only thin about her and imagine things along her. She looks like a free flowing river for me and I am the lone boatman singing the song of joy and enjoying the beauty of this journey. When this journey will come to a halt? When will I find solace in meeting her and spending time with her? When it will be? Out of the balance life left for us in this world, how many days or hours we will be spending with each other? How many? Hope she has an answer to these questions! I don’t have an answer for the same.